{"id":240,"date":"2024-02-19T19:43:07","date_gmt":"2024-02-20T00:43:07","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.1stepatatime.ca\/?p=240"},"modified":"2024-02-20T19:37:15","modified_gmt":"2024-02-21T00:37:15","slug":"its-okay-to-admit-youre-not-okay","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.1stepatatime.ca\/?p=240","title":{"rendered":"It&#8217;s okay to admit you&#8217;re not okay&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>It\u2019s a beautiful winter day where I live. Today as I was driving into town to run some errands I saw this house on my way to town that bothers me every time I see it. I look at it and think it&#8217;s a metaphor for what the world is like these days. It\u2019s an older white brick ranch style house, or rather it was back in the day. A few years back they refaced the front of the house in a beautiful stone, leaving the sides and back with the original white brick. It looks gorgeous from the front. The new refacing and the old white brick do not fit together. It makes me think that just like most of us we don\u2019t like or appreciate ourselves so we put on this fancy veneer to make yourselves look bright and shiny.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I\u2019m as guilty as the next guy for worrying and wondering what people will think. I remember sitting at my mommy\u2019s group not wanting to admit the second my husband walked in the door I gave him my son because I couldn\u2019t parent one more minute, and I felt like a huge failure. Or pretending at a BBQ that my husband and I hadn\u2019t gotten in a huge fight on the way there. I remember not inviting people over because the dishes and the laundry were piled up and it was just too much work to finish those chores. We pretend like we\u2019re okay because it\u2019s too hard to admit we\u2019re not, even to ourselves sometimes.&nbsp;&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Over the years I have come to realize that most of us think we are just putting on a show for others. That if people knew the real us they wouldn\u2019t like us or want to be around us. I believe they call it imposter syndrome. Like the house on my drive we are putting on a beautiful stone veneer while the part people can\u2019t see is the same old white brick.&nbsp;&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>How freeing would it be to look at the pile of laundry and not berate yourself for not being good enough? To be able to have your partner step up because they know you&#8217;re struggling to be a person and a parent at the same time? That you can\u2019t even remember who you were before this mess.&nbsp;&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>When we can admit we are not okay and allow ourselves to just be who we are we are on the road to freedom. You\u2019ll notice as you start to do that others around you will respond in a similar fashion. You will show them that it\u2019s okay to not be perfect. It&#8217;s okay to be messy and needy sometimes. We are all doing the best we can with where we are and what we have at the time. Sometimes that\u2019s amazing and sometimes it\u2019s not so amazing.&nbsp;&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>When I first admitted it to myself I started on a journey that has truly changed my life. It started with that one realization. Since that time I have had to give myself many reminders that who I am is okay, better than okay actually.&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><strong>Here&#8217;s some of the things I\u2019ve found that really helped me along the way.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<ul class=\"wp-block-list\">\n<li><strong>Acknowledge you are not where you want to be and allow yourself the low moods<\/strong>\n<ul class=\"wp-block-list\">\n<li>This is a big one. If we won\u2019t admit it to ourselves how can we move past it. Pretending a side of us doesn\u2019t exist won\u2019t make it go away.<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<\/li>\n\n\n\n<li><strong>Quiet time or self reflection time of some sort&nbsp;<\/strong>\n<ul class=\"wp-block-list\">\n<li>Try walking or taking a warm bath. Grab a few minutes when you get up or before bed, when doing chores, even sitting on the toilet. Just a few minutes can make a big difference.<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<\/li>\n\n\n\n<li><strong>Be kind to yourself<\/strong>\n<ul class=\"wp-block-list\">\n<li>Not being perfect is not a weakness. It is normal. Even though we see other people\u2019s seemingly perfect lives just remember it\u2019s just a pretty cover not reality.<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<\/li>\n\n\n\n<li><strong>Be aware of your inner dialog&nbsp;<\/strong>\n<ul class=\"wp-block-list\">\n<li>Is your self talk positive or negative? Would you speak to a loved one that way? Being aware of what we say to ourselves is the key to letting down that wall that keeps us separate.&nbsp;<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<\/li>\n\n\n\n<li><strong>Do one thing different each day<\/strong>\n<ul class=\"wp-block-list\">\n<li>Spend as little as 5-10 minutes doing something you&#8217;ve been putting off. This small amount of time will make you feel like you are moving forward. That\u2019s a powerful feeling that can motivate you more. Remember to be kind to yourself if one day you aren\u2019t able to do that one thing. Tomorrow is another day to try again.<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<\/li>\n\n\n\n<li><strong>Journaling<\/strong>\n<ul class=\"wp-block-list\">\n<li>This doesn\u2019t need to be a time consuming experience. It can be as simple as jotting down random feelings or thoughts. If traditional journaling works for you that\u2019s great too. Personally I don\u2019t journal in a free writing style too often. I tend to journal in jot note form. Daily I write what activities I did that day, three things I am grateful for, about a paragraph of free writing followed by plans and intentions for the following day. The whole process takes no more than ten minutes before bed. It helps me to reflect on the day and get my head around what is happening the next day. I also have another journal that I write in occasionally when I am trying to work something out or dig deeper into an issue. That is the time I do free writing or mind mapping. Mind mapping is actually one of my favorite ways to get to the heart of an issue. My journals are&nbsp; just lined notebook or scrapbooks (if you want more room) that I purchased at the local dollar store.<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<\/li>\n\n\n\n<li><strong>Talk with friends, surround yourself with good people<\/strong>\n<ul class=\"wp-block-list\">\n<li>The people we spend time with are so important. It&#8217;s hard to be kind to ourselves and strive for a positive attitude when we are surrounded by judgment and negativity.<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n\n\n\n<p>Remember it doesn\u2019t need to be a big change or gesture. Each little step leads us closer to where we want to be and to who we want to be.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center\"><em><strong>Journal questions<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>Am I living true to myself?<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>What is one small step I can make today to become more me?<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>Is there someone I can try to open up to?<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\">\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\">\n<p><\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-image\">\n<figure class=\"aligncenter size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"1024\" height=\"197\" src=\"https:\/\/www.1stepatatime.ca\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/02\/facade-1-1024x197.png\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-248\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.1stepatatime.ca\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/02\/facade-1-1024x197.png 1024w, https:\/\/www.1stepatatime.ca\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/02\/facade-1-300x58.png 300w, https:\/\/www.1stepatatime.ca\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/02\/facade-1-768x148.png 768w, https:\/\/www.1stepatatime.ca\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/02\/facade-1-1536x295.png 1536w, https:\/\/www.1stepatatime.ca\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/02\/facade-1-2048x394.png 2048w, https:\/\/www.1stepatatime.ca\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/02\/facade-1-312x60.png 312w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 1024px) 100vw, 1024px\" \/><\/figure><\/div>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>It\u2019s a beautiful winter day where I live. 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